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9/24/08 09:20 pm - Entry 024

My fucking internets down. and I can't fucking stand it. Does anyone actually read these? I don't think so.
So Monday might of been one of theee best days of my life. Me and Tommy met up and he had ROSES for me (: and he asked me to homecoming and such, and I almost started to crying because he's my main source of happiness, and I'm pretty sure that's what love is. He took me to Chubby's too, even though he HATESS Chubby's and that was nice of him. Then we were laying in a field when it was pitch black out except for car lights that was nice, except for the 4,000 mosquito bites we both had. Anywayssss, I love Tommmmmmyyyyyy (: I really have nothing else to say. bye!

9/13/08 07:38 pm - Entry 023


I wish I could explain myself. I wish I knew why I always felt like crying. I wish I knew why I'm so god damned miserable all the time. I wish people would realize that I need help. I wish my mom or dad could take notice, and I don't know...care? I wish I had a reason for why I'm about to cry. I mean minus this major flood right now, everything's fine. I just, don't understand myself.

9/10/08 05:23 pm - Entry 022

You know that feeling you get when you feel like you're going to barf or something? But really it's just because you're hurt, and you just don't know what to do about it. Well I feel like that right now. I really feel like I need to talk to 'someone' but I don't think I can't because I don't know how to put in words, and I'm afraid of a fight starting.  I hate finding out when people don't like you. Maybe it was a lie..
Current Music: Sorry I stole Yo Gurl By: The Friday Night Boys

9/8/08 05:45 pm - Entry 021

Do you ever hear songs that speak to you? You know, songs that like are so good, and you just can't take how good the lyrics are. And then there's times when you can't stop listening to a song, because the lyrics are just so god damn good. Lately thats been happening to me a lot, I think it's because I used to barely listen to lyrics of songs, and just because it's catchy and/or a band i like sings it i'd like it, and i really 'study' the lyrics now, i think that has something to do with it. even sometimes i'll cry of songs being so fucking good. i wont be able to describe the feeling, or how good the song is. it really makes me wish i was creative enough to write a good song. this is short, thats because i just needed to say this some where.

Current Music: Heartbreak for six seasons By: Daphene Loves Derby

9/7/08 10:26 am - Entry 020

I woke up about a half hour ago, because Alli was shoving our MAYDAY PARADE/ALL TIME LOW/ THE MAINE TICKETS in my face. So now I'm doing this and texting Tommy. I had loads of fun yesterday, Tommy Casey and Becca came over. Rachel and Anna were going to...but things happen and plans change I guess, and we'll leave it at that. I don't know if they realized it's been at least two months since I've seen Rachel and almost one month since I've seen Anna. I wonder if they've realized how badly I miss them. Honestly, I don't think they care enough. Whatever, I didn't let that ruin my night. We dyed Tommy's hair blue, and that was fun. And the rest of the time was mainly just talking and making really fun jokes, like always. I'm sure we're gonna be doing that like every other weekend now, which I totally don't mind. The carwash with Tommy and Becca was fun too. The school made $553 I think it's for hawk fest. Which I really can't wait for. I can't wait for like that whole week of homecoming! I hate dances, but I love the ones where everyone gets all dressed up. Anyways, back to the carwash, the south-elgin cheerleaders were like down the street from us doing a carwash, so that was compitetion, they were getting like so many more customers, and ours was free (with donation)! There's was like $5. But it was a good time. So later today, I'm going to Bre's house. We're gonna walk around Bartlettt and chill and stuff. Which is what I do best! woohoo! I still have math homework, fuckkkk. But I have study hall first period, so that's good. I still need my wallet from Casey >.<  My tummy hurts, okay bye.
Current Music: That's What She Said By: The Friday Night Boys

9/6/08 08:53 pm

Do you ever have nights that are perfect, and everything goes exactly how you wanted it to? Well, I did last night. I thought it was just going to be an average Tommy/Amy hang out. and I would tell you what those are like but I'm not gonna post it to the internet. I just felt so..so.. real. I felt like nothing would go wrong. I felt so goddamn infinte, If I could of just stayed in that time and place forever, it would of been great. We don't cuddle that much when we're alone, we mainly do...other things. We were just cuddleing like the whole time, I fell asleep in Tommy's lap, I don't think I've ever done that. I felt so magical. That probably sounds insanely gay, But I don't exactly care, it's how I felt. I can't think of one thing that would of ruined yesterday. I promise I'm in love.
Current Music: I'd Hate To Be You When People Find Out What This Song Is About By: Mayday Parad

9/4/08 05:41 pm - Entry 018

I've decided to rant and make my meaningless problems yours. I didn't have a good today, not only was it boring, but this morning I woke up with the worst stomach ache in the world, and I was soooo hungry, but I was afraid to eat! So by sixth period lunch I was starving, I ate a slice of pizza, and fries. Healthy, I know right? O.o But I felt like I was gonna have explosive dierreha or something. I continued acting like nothing was wrong, because well, that's what I always do. Then in seventh period biology, I smelled something really raunchy, and for some reason I thought it was me, which made things worse. Then my group in science, didn't talk at all!! And I'm normally the shy one, so I had to break the ice and talk. Then when we presented, once again, I was the only one talking. And let me tell you, I suck at talking in front of people. Eighth period, child ed. was fine, but kind of boring. After eighth period I was so happy because I always see Tommy after eighth period, and that's always good, and he's like I have to tell you something, and the tone he said it in, kind of freaked me out, then he's all "I MADE THE PLAY!" and of course I was happy for him because it's what he enjoys doing, and I'd like to see him act and stuff, but inside I knew that meant I would barely be able to see him. And then he tells me he plays someones boyfriend as is all "there might be a kissing scene.." and I was trying my hardest not to cry, or tear up.  Then when I got home, my mom was being such a bitch for like no reason at all, and then Alli was really annoying me like she has been for the past week, but we normally get along, so I don't get that. Later, Tommy signed on AIM and told me how there wasn't a kissing scene, which made things a little better. But then Alli started being annoying again. I also noticed my face is breaking out like a bitch, and of course thats never fun. I'm so hungryyyy, but of course there's no fucking food in this house i'm done ranting now, I'm gonna go esplode.


Current Music: Rock My Body By: The Higher

8/30/08 11:29 am - Entry 017

I'm not in a good mood at all. I'm at my dads house, Alli and Gracie are just talking, and I'm sitting on my laptop as usual. I can't stop thinking about eighth grade, i miss it a lot. i hate high school, i hate my friends being so far away, i hate only seeing my SOME of my friends like twice a day. i wanna go back to eighth grade, it was the best year of my life, i saw atleast three friends during every passing period. the school is too big, i miss cute little eastveiw, i miss getting in trouble for talking all the time in history, i miss always getting caught chewing gum in science, i just want to go back.




eighth grade <3
Current Music: Secret Crowds By: Angels and Airwaves

8/28/08 04:46 pm - Entry 016

I don't like school too much, just the last three periods and fourth period, because i actually have friends, i need to make friends, theres too many people i dont like in my classes, and im one of 8 white people in my math class, i feel like im in one of those retard classes, even though im in average. ahh! this is uber short.
Current Music: Josie By:Blink 182

8/26/08 08:27 pm - Entry 015

school starts tomorrow. the first school night of the year. no more sleepovers 5 nights in a row, no more flip flops, no more staying up until four in the morning on the phone. say goodbye to freedom, and hello to mean teachers,and homework.anyway, im talking to yazmin on aim and i kind of am rachel too. my tummy hurts a lot, and i got my braces off. so atleast i get to start school brace-free (:  i really have nothing to say.
Current Music: Risque By: Cute Is What We Aim For
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